The weight came and went
and took my will to live.
Spoiled by defeat,
forced to drown in what's left of me.
That's when breathing became routine.
And I could feel myself fading.No direction,
I am a compass;
Constantly spinning.
Constantly searching for the end.
Never reaching our destination.
But the goal was never when,
Or where,
Or how.
It was only you.
I appeared in your arms
as if I had been born there.
You promised you'd never let me go.
But I don't know what I believe anymore.
'What to believe anymore.
Affection allowed me to let the light in.
The fear made me whole again.
Help me rebuild my broken bones.
Help me regain my sanity.
But with caution always present,
Our pasts manifest themselves.
And we act as if this is what we deserve.
But I refuse to fail again.I'd force my ghost to write your name
in the flowers
on my grave.
I watched the world give up on me.
I used to spend my nights
praying for air in my bloodstream.
Now I long to feel your breath
pass through my arteries.
(The goal was never when
Or where
Or how.)
It was only you.I appeared in your arms
as if I had been born there.
You promised you'd never let me go.
But I don't know what I believe anymore.
'What to believe anymore.
Fill me with your faith
and let me leaveI'm scratching at my skin
to take my mind off the absence we've created.
The lines blur together like the veins in my arms.
And I wish I wasn't so alone.
You're the difference between hell and home.
